Something about me.... (not RS related)
本帖最後由 aclet0821 於 18-10-2009 04:41 編輯Tonight, something really bad happened to me irl... not in rs..
I think only one of us in Nakuz know wat happened to me...
He didn't bail or betray me or watsoever... just my own problem
anyways, just don't make me angry in the next few days or even months....
If you see me got lighted up... and the flame is on my head... I don't mean that...
But at the moment, I sorta out of control... (sorta wanna die -.-)
Don't worry, I'll be alright... =] you won't be that lucky to see me on newspaper...
Just to let you guys know... incase...
P.S. If you wanna know, ask me later, not now... or... I'll be really gfed and ... byebye irl... lol..
sinking myself in rs to forget the pain atm... even exams in 4days...
idc now... stuff exams... hour counts played rs today : 16h 本帖最後由 aclet0821 於 18-10-2009 03:27 編輯
I don't want to think about it now...
or I'll crack... crack like a X'mas cracker, cept you don't get the phat...
you get... 9999999 bil of vial of tears....
You can ask Yan if you really want to know > <
(Yan, soz, put u on the table -.-)
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play count : 19hrs of rs... -.-
fml man!!!!!!! bad effing news...
mass bandos trip (6attackers 3tankers) ... keep got crashed...
6men bandos (3attackers 3tankers loled)... again, keep got crashed....
at the end... 60k loot from 3hrs... wtf
sudden felt bored in my acc...
helped yan in quest... = =
R.I.P. 14 months
本帖最後由 aclet0821 於 18-10-2009 04:48 編輯Fine... don't want you guys fan Yan -.-
just typed my xanga... here's my story, get it or not...
if you don't get it, don't ask wtf happened -.-
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I just simply can't believe that this had happened to me...
I never think of, and never want this to happen...
Already happened once 3years ago, how painful was that experience...
And now, again.... FUCK THAT IS FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!! http://s.xanga.com/images/censored.gif
Three years ago, I heard one sentence that broke my heart... from person A.
andI know I deserve that too, since it was my problem, just was me being anerd, a newb, a cunt, a fag, a dick head, an idiot, a retard thatannoyed you that much...
One year after that incident, I thought... "This has to be the ONE"
15 months of love... we ended up with me hearing the same sentence again....from person B. http://s.xanga.com/images/wtf.gif
From a person that I loved so much, that I could die for her, as long she is safe, she is happy.
I hated that I let you went on with the course, I hated that I didn't come back during the break, I hate... I hate...
I hated myself... for many reasons... just hate myself...
It's four days before exams, and this happened...
I have no aim, no target, no oil, no motivation to get me going...
Why would you pick this day...
Becos you want me to forget you to concentrate my studies? - without u, I fail...
Becos you want me to go away as soon as possible? - why tho?
Becos my acts (as missing you, love you) are disturbing you? - just cos we're further apart, lost love in me?
Becos you feel that I'm not trusting you anymore? - i'm always 100% at your back!!
Becos... Becos... Becos...
There are many Becos'es... But which one is the right one?
I used to promise you...
"Sweetie, I'll do my best, and I'll look after you for the rest of your life. And shall be happy forever."
"Hunny, I will never never let you walk alone."
"LP, you are the music in me."
"Darling, can't spend Chong Chou Chik with you, but I'll spend my x'mas with you for sure."
"I'm not good at surprises, but I'll do my best to give you one."
Many promises I made, some I did do my promises, some I can't...
One promise you made, I was looking forward to... as 5 weeks till landing back to Hong Kong...
but now... *sign* you break your promise...
Now... it's all gone...
All my dreams are gone...
I don't want to study... I don't want to play violin... I don't want to sleep... I don't want to eat...
I just don't want to do anything... and I want to die!
How funny is this, http://s.xanga.com/images/bummed.gif
When my friends are facing these problems...
I always get them to be tough... comfort them...
Once I'm in the situation... I couldn't handle it...
Heart is broken... my energy bar is cracked... my mental bar is cracked...
Just that simple, I don't want to live now anymore...
Stuff life... fuck that...
Why is that God gives that such challenge to us...
Why is this happening... why...
If... the only thing I can do to make you happy is to get away from you...
No... phone calls... No... Messages... No... wake up calls...
No... hugs... No... shoulder for you when you are crying....
Then fine, so be it... but I prefer to die instead of me facing these...
I will misses those we did in the last 15months... and keep them in my heart http://s.xanga.com/images/happy.gif
Yes, I am Alvin Chan...
18 year old... Chinese... Australian...
was tough, now weak... was always positive, now always negative...
was love to smile, now sad face... was being loved, now not loved...
Now, instead of sharing happiness with a person I love...
I am now suffering by myself...
If there are anything I can do to make you come back to be with me Happily,
I would do so, but seems...it won't happen...
You had already said
"What I decided, no one can change. And I hope you will take my suggestion."
All I'm hoping is... this is not real... I'm only in a bad bad dream...
but the chance is very very very low....
I'd wish you to come back, say sorry, you didn't meant that...
But again, chance is very very very low...
This is Sadness 1... Sadness 2 is coming up...
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play count or awake count : 20hr
alvin,唔好咁傷心啦,呀yan話左比我聽了....忘記過去 開開心心玩runescape吧=] Never Give Up !!! 10p0t Alivn4ever :] 本帖最後由 aclet0821 於 18-10-2009 16:43 編輯
Awake count : 36hrs
RS Play total time: about 30hrs (very not constructive 30hrs)
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this morning suddenly thought through something...
pretty positive, problem solving atm...
hope i'll have good news back =]
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im really awake now still... i might go another all-nighters tonight -.-
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ty for supports =]
and Martin... I bet if god want this happen, he don't want me study...
how can a person recover within 3 days after a break up...
first exam is on wednesday -.- what happened? 本帖最後由 石更石翏 於 18-10-2009 16:56 編輯
LOL.... 大半年前我同你差唔多....不過我果陣仲癲...哩喺朋友屋企...幾條佬take drugs...維持左三日
Hurt一次以後就唔會再咁hurt架喇 只少我敢肯定我果時hurt過你一百倍...
難聽D講我同佢乜都經歷過 冇嘢係未做過...果陣沉醉於"sweet dream"嘅我...認定佢係我咁多個ex 之中最愛果個 .... 結果?
哈 , 記住要經常提自己一句....女人係善變的....promise?冇架喇....仲有人講promise? promise就係最真實既大話: o)
Even我同依家條女一齊幾開心都好我唔想再好似之前咁認真
Good lucky~
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